Lesson Over



"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?"

 Hello , been a while again. I don't  know why I  keep apologizing , its not like i have time to blog , its my final summer as a senior and it ends in a week , Life Sucks but what can I do. So its August , which I Refer to as the academic Month. Summer is over , School's in a week or so and it just feels horrible. No more all nighters, no more mid-week hang outs , no more late night skype chats basically were back to our crappy casual life . Waking up at 6 preparing for school , Homework’s , Stress , School Problems , Whatever educational Issue , You name it . I mean it just sucks. Coming to think of it , I had quite the summer. I left Khartoum since May 21st , been here for almost 3 months , Had a blast , Went to countless theme parks and  Go-karting, Ice skating, Bowling ,Watched a few new movies , The priceless nights during Mid June with a few friends and Finally,  the  Shopping. Forget the protests that screwed my plans and not to mention the courses i had to attend for a month, Still had a legit time.  Heck , i dont even wanna go back to that hell hole. I'd kill to live here because I  know Just as I'm back to Sudan , I'll be Caught up with studies and shit , not gonna have time to do anything anymore.  Last night I had a Fun time out with someone Who I've been striving to meet all summer , we'd usually make plans through whatsapp but just last night  we had a proper chill out , Was fun considering were very close now.  Anyways , I just hate how the days are flying and by this time next week I'd be in Sudan , Then a whole new story will begin , the 2013-2014 Campaign. which is my last year in high school. Graduation is in exactly 8 months , and we finish school then. As my concern keeps rising up , I just have this horrible feeling about something Thats been haunting me , I just get this weird feeling That irritates me badly. I hope I'm wrong because most of my hunches actually happen , which is a bad thing. I'm not gonna make any Assumptions now and think I'm some psychic , Let Faith strike itself and whatever happens, Happens. I hope i get a chance to post soon , I'll be busy  but I'll make sure I do , for the mean time Farewell to an Epic  2013 Summer,  was a wild one.  In 9 days I'll be an IG candidate , For now am just a senior. Lil man Out

Hard to get

"Screw a fake friend , where your real friends at?"

Apologies , I didnt blog for a week or so. Happy Ramadan to everyone! I've been sleeping alot lately so its hard to have free time to blog and during the fasting hours i'm either gaming online or just listening to Quran or studying. its the second week of July, Time goes by really fast and in a months time , school would be started and i'd be in Sudan. Coming to think of it , i actually dont wanna leave. I Mean , Here its just a different lifestyle, ofcourse over there i have all my friends and all that but here it just feels good and comfortable. Ramadan has been easy , I'm used to fasting anyways so its not much of a deal really although i do struggle when i'm thirsty which rarely happens since am asleep half the day. But hunger usually strikes me out of no where. Anyways , thats that. i wanted to talk about fake friends ( not saying i have any) i just wanna talk about something that pisses the crap out of me , You have a friend. your close and all , atleast thats what you think. then really when you think of it , that friend is either just using you or being 2 faced. I Mean , my Definition and understanding of a real friend is someone who's with you no matter what , helps with whatever your going through , encourages you for nothing other than whats best for you and actually cares about you. Fake friends are one's who talk behind your back , bitch about you for something you wont even notice and even fact they'll only be there for you when they need you. Sadly , the generation we live in today , we have plenty of those. Thankfully there isn't alot in my society ( I hope).

Fake friends just use you , with whatever advantage you have  that they dont , or just for the sake of popularity and public attention.  I Absolutely Despise attention seekers , i thank God i dont know anyone who's qualified to that category but still. In that same principal , people would be using you to put themselves over the top. Real friends are the loyal ones , the ones that respect you and go through everything with you.

Fake friends are just nothing , but low lifes. i mean , So You've just used someone to take control over what they had in the first place , days later you bitch about how terrible he is at anythiing and how your better at it and you start brainswashing others , well you deserve a standing ovation from my middle finger.

Sorry just had to state this out, to all my readers. Dont trust anyone unless you fully approve that he's been with you.  " Open your eyes , start looking for the wise"

Lil Man out

No Guns Are Allowed

" Bullets do not Choose a Victim , it is the shooter that picks em"

 4th Of July! Enjoy your Day Native Americans , Last night was also a Revolutional Success for Egypt as yet they managed to Forcibly step down there helpless president , meaning no more chaos and Violance and hopefully now i can get to enjoy summer. I still think the president didnt do shit but whatever , i don't wanna get all political since it's clearly not my game but yeah , Sudan should atleast learn From this.
Egypt makes us look like shit to be honest and thats the sad truth. So yeah , My Last Blog was rather deep than the rest of the others i guess , Its because i had to talk about how Girls get hurt and Men really dont give a fuck , which is sad. Some guys thing their real thugs , i mean You claim yourself a real boyfriend,  For dating a chick , You say you ''Love'' her And you dump her for absolutely nothing. I mean , wow  the only thing that was real was the helpless girl you were with who loved you and ended up hurt in the end thanks to you. Anyways
Isn't it  funny ,When someone so close to you , all of a sudden means nothing now? I mean i know its called growing up or whatever but seriously , Looking back at all the memories you've had together and now You barely say hi. Thats what i hate about Life , Replacing people Just annoys but sometimes you replace the bad ones with better so you never really know. And Wisely , In life people do change. It doesn't have to particularly mean anything personal , but people sadly change for the sake of others , Atleast thats what I've observed. Its abit rough,  say you have a bestfriend , he changes for someone you absolutely Hate , What would he mean to you now? Or the question is , what do YOU mean to them now? This is Just some General things that i usually ask myself all the time but i let go oftenly. Its a Thursday today , During this time in Sudan , I'd be Spending the weekend with My friends , usually out to grab a bite or just a small gathering at who ever's house. I actually miss it , It's because here i don't have much people to go out with , or even if i do , they live halfway across the city and by the time i reach them , the whole day would be finished.  The Tittle is a name of a song , Definetly a good one , Been listening to it all week. Give it a try , It's some good Vibe that'll cheer you up.  As My summer comes to an end , My main goals now is just to Survive Ramadan , Get Some Whole Wardrobe , And Basically live The last months as this is my last summer as a Senior and It's quite scary to think of it , knowing next year I'd be in college with this Height ( Got taller , but aint gonna brag) , And somewhat gonna Live that  Dope College life with this Mentality of mine.
Catch you guys soon , Lil man Out 

Bulletproof suit



"A Reputation depends on Education"

Hello , I Missed a day. Apologies , My sleeping pattern is very messed  
up. Its like am an alien. I'd sleep all day and Stay up all night. Yeah , You must be thinking i have no life but trust me if you were in my postion you would have done the same, Its like am locked in a prison, and am some sort of an unleashed animal that is kept in some cage. I Haven't been out in a few days but you can't blame me , I'm not insane to walk this door and instantly get shot by some civillian.  You may think staying up all night is a stupid thing to do , but its actually the most quite and peaceful time , i mean there's no annoying people around. you can basically get your mind off anything , the stress , pressure , whatever situation your in. I'd like to share how last night my mood suddenly changed from bad to good.
and thank fully it changed because  i have amazing friends. One's who make me smile , even I'm this further away and yet they manage to keep me happy . So i was stressing out about something that didn't even exist , for a second there i was lost , just faded in my own imagination , thinking about bullshit that hasn't even come to life. I Started overthinking like a fag , then i noticed there was a spark . I Was extremely worried , it was like i was about to lose something that my whole life depends on , something thats so special that it would effect me in every way. But then again, Like i said Friends Managed to turned my head upside down from the bullshit , and they managed to get my mind straight up. Playing online was also a distraction as i took on all my anger and frustration on call of duty. At the end , i was happy and Nothing really matterred to me.
when i re-thought about the whole situation , i was thinking. Why do people overthink? It just causes a mess and shit that didnt even exist in the first place and it somehow recks all your happiness and brainswashes you momentarilly.  I woud also like to talk about how Girls are a major thing in this world , i mean You date a girl , You claim you love her , You dump her months to come and days later you ask another girl out? Thats just bullshit, Girls are emotional and they just mean something to this world , They deserve to be treated right , I For one Won't ever think about hurting any girl , no matter what she's done to me. I Won't go bitch to people about her and devastate her whole life . Girls are sensitive , every action we do somehow has an effect on them emotionally.  To every guy out there , Treat your girls right . i don't care if you think this is massive faggotism , in the end its the truth and I'm not persuading you or deliberately begging you to this. Its basically an option , You choose whats right to you . 
Lil Man out

Paranormal Activity



" The Fear Is Excitement itself "

 Well , Lets Just say I'm not Safe at all. I Woke up to Gun shots outside in the street. God Knows Whats wrong , I Live far away from all these protests but that still doesnt mean the violance  can't reach me here. This is Egypt , People have absolutely no Brains , Alll they care about is Money and Wealth, If you dont have those and your egyptian , You will go wild. Just like all these pathetic people outside in the street everyday protesting at absolutely nothing. The stupidity is , There President was Appointed less than a year ago and somehow they still think they have the  potential to make him end up like the former President who is currently under charges. Tommorow is the 30th , Thats the day they're claiming there gonna take shit to a whole new level. Whatever , As Long as I'm safe in My flat.
What I'm scared of is that they might Cut down Internet , Phone Operators And land line services. Thats when I'm possibly gonna go Baserk. Anyways , Prayers are needed for me. And my dad couldnt even Book for Sharm , Unforunatetly All Tourist Agencies are claiming their " Full" . I'll Find a way to survive , Its Faith thats the answer.  I'm Actually excited to see whats gonna happen , I'm not scared or anything. But i have high doubts with these Cold Blooded bastards , You can never Know if they will do something.
Today I Woke up And i was just so tired , I Felt lost for a second. I Thought it would be the Confederations Cup Final Between Brazil and Spain but it turns out thats its Monday,1am GMT+3 , And thats just to make things worse , I Doubt I'll be out tommorow with all the Theft and Chaos thats going on.
I'd Go with Spain since they're very high profile  , They have world class midfielders which is definetly the key to the whole game. Brazil on the other hand have Solid Defenders. Anyways Thats My blog for today !

Lil Man out

Mercy



" Every Memory Lives Somewhere Deep within"

 Hello! Well You can say I'm back to Blogging , not Exactly, But I've had some massive motivation to do so in the past few days and besides there's nothing really i can do. I Mean at the moment , I'm in a country thats slowly falling apart. Protests everyday , Crime in the street , Vandalism , Kidnapping Basicially all violations you can think of. I'm stuck here till the 10th of August well Just Because Ramadan is coming up and My parents think its a good idea to spend the break here. Anyways , So Were about to conclude the spectacular month Of June. Probably my favorite month of the year since Its my birthday and Summer is Present then . Let me start talking about next month , I Basically hate July -.- . In all Ways , Because its the final month of the summer and because it just irritates me , i feel like I'm gonna be  abducted or its just the pressure thats put on me for IG's and Courses and shit.
Whats Worse is that My IG's are in less than a Year and Im no where near Ready.
I'd Like to Go back to arguably my Best year In Unity. Year 10 , It was such a flawless year , All the memories cant be forgotten , Espicially towards the end. I Remember 3 particular days , The 24th of April , And The 16th and 18th. Those were our ditching days where we'd go to someone's house or a local place and just chill and forget the stress of school. Epic days , I Remember the time when half the grade ditched School and came over to my house , Thats the day My shisha got confiscated , Couples Went Crazy , My couch got burned. Who cares yo?  It was 2 days before our final examinations and either way we had to do something exremely impressive and to be fucking proud of.  I'd say our grade is the craziest Bunch , Were pretty wild. Unlike the rest , but we do actually care about our academics , Most of us have a pretty standard Intellect.
I'm hoping year 11 would be better than year 10 , Its our last year in high school. We will fuck shit up , Thats a Promise. ;)  The Name of the tittle is a song by Big Sean and Kanye west , Suggest check it out. Its pretty relevant to this whole thing since  Our whole grade was obssesed with it towards the final stages of the academic year.
I'm asking you , If  its  your last year in high school , what would you do?  I'll give you my answer to this in a years time and You'll see what we've done.  My point is , Year 10 was killer crazy . Parties , Grounding , Late night Cruising , Ditching , Everything. :P  And now its summer , Year 11 is in less than 2 months  and I'm in this shit hole thats gonna be go crazy on the 30th , I Miss alot of People Thats what i hate about Summer , Mostly Fiasco , My Best Friend , Only Real person i know and  I Mentioned Him a few times and You probably heard about his Infamous Blog. Anyways , Yeah He's Currently Under this whole thingy Of Depression. and i hate to be here , Thousands of miles away having fun while He's Just stroked. It kills me , He's been with me every step of my way this year , Wish i can do anything.
 
" Presence of Pain is a sign of happiness"
Lil Man out

Forbidden Words

Hello Everyone , Its been a while Since I Blogged. Like i said , i dont blog on a daily basis because i honestly dont have that much stories to share and Its not that I'm a boring person but I Dont share Personal shit , To be Precise i Keep my shit to myself . I Hate Criticism and i can't stand people Talking about me without me knowing , Its that Simple. Anyways , Yeah I'm In Cairo , Living the last few Months of summer  Anyways I'm not here to talk about that , I'm here for something else. Basically , Just recently I've luckily got to know some awesome people Which are really nice. And I'm glad i know , But there's one That stands out the Most, Which is why Am here. I've only Knew her for a couple of weeks but now I'm glad were close. Lets just Start with how Amazing you are , I Mean Some people are very hard to get along with But Somehow , You just have this Positive Vibe. And you study in one of the schools that I Despise , But your Just Epic , Cool , Easy Going. Everything , You name it. I Could talk about you here all day if i can , I'm just hoping to find enough words to Potentially get to my point that Your an amazing Person. I also welcome you to blogging , We need People like you to fill up these readers. Your Very sweet , caring and I've never met such A Great person who i can Keep the conversation going with for Hours. I Never get bored , You put a smile on my face , I put one on yours. :D Your actually the reason I'm Up all night these days , Our Priceless talks and Talking to You makes me Happy, Well i know This is gonna cause some Chaos but I'm sure if the reader has a sense of humour he wont Understand this The wrong Way. Its Very easy to get along with you , And Thats made it clearly easy for me to share with you some Hilarious flashbacks. I'm Gifted to know you , Not To mention how Pretty You are. Your Smile actually Reminds me of My special Someone , And thats really Ironic.
Despite the fact that I've only just got to know you better , You somehow manage to deal with me comfortably and i feel Trusted. We Both Like Fifa , Maybe one day I'll kick your ass in it. :P Unless i go easy on you which i dont usually do to my Opponents but Your a major Exception , As long as it makes you happy To win. I'll make sure I'll lose. Your coming to Egypt Soon and I'm looking forward to it , Lets hope we both Get to enjoy Ourselves in this Ghetto Country , I Promised a long ass Blog But I'm actually running out of words but you cant blame Me , You mean alot to me Now and I'll live with the annoying nicknames You give me. PLL Is defientetly our Thing , We both Cant get enough to check out the people ;)
I Wish I Can write any further But I'm dating and even know I might get interrogated myself for writing all this but Your Worth every Sentence , At the End Your one of the people  I'll never got bored of talking to and Laughing with.  So Here's a post for you that i Promised, And Thank you For Being One of these special people who mean the entire world to me. On Regards Of the Tittle , Its a book. Lil_Man Out

" The Beauty of all these words , is the annonymous name behind it"