Hard to get

"Screw a fake friend , where your real friends at?"

Apologies , I didnt blog for a week or so. Happy Ramadan to everyone! I've been sleeping alot lately so its hard to have free time to blog and during the fasting hours i'm either gaming online or just listening to Quran or studying. its the second week of July, Time goes by really fast and in a months time , school would be started and i'd be in Sudan. Coming to think of it , i actually dont wanna leave. I Mean , Here its just a different lifestyle, ofcourse over there i have all my friends and all that but here it just feels good and comfortable. Ramadan has been easy , I'm used to fasting anyways so its not much of a deal really although i do struggle when i'm thirsty which rarely happens since am asleep half the day. But hunger usually strikes me out of no where. Anyways , thats that. i wanted to talk about fake friends ( not saying i have any) i just wanna talk about something that pisses the crap out of me , You have a friend. your close and all , atleast thats what you think. then really when you think of it , that friend is either just using you or being 2 faced. I Mean , my Definition and understanding of a real friend is someone who's with you no matter what , helps with whatever your going through , encourages you for nothing other than whats best for you and actually cares about you. Fake friends are one's who talk behind your back , bitch about you for something you wont even notice and even fact they'll only be there for you when they need you. Sadly , the generation we live in today , we have plenty of those. Thankfully there isn't alot in my society ( I hope).

Fake friends just use you , with whatever advantage you have  that they dont , or just for the sake of popularity and public attention.  I Absolutely Despise attention seekers , i thank God i dont know anyone who's qualified to that category but still. In that same principal , people would be using you to put themselves over the top. Real friends are the loyal ones , the ones that respect you and go through everything with you.

Fake friends are just nothing , but low lifes. i mean , So You've just used someone to take control over what they had in the first place , days later you bitch about how terrible he is at anythiing and how your better at it and you start brainswashing others , well you deserve a standing ovation from my middle finger.

Sorry just had to state this out, to all my readers. Dont trust anyone unless you fully approve that he's been with you.  " Open your eyes , start looking for the wise"

Lil Man out

No Guns Are Allowed

" Bullets do not Choose a Victim , it is the shooter that picks em"

 4th Of July! Enjoy your Day Native Americans , Last night was also a Revolutional Success for Egypt as yet they managed to Forcibly step down there helpless president , meaning no more chaos and Violance and hopefully now i can get to enjoy summer. I still think the president didnt do shit but whatever , i don't wanna get all political since it's clearly not my game but yeah , Sudan should atleast learn From this.
Egypt makes us look like shit to be honest and thats the sad truth. So yeah , My Last Blog was rather deep than the rest of the others i guess , Its because i had to talk about how Girls get hurt and Men really dont give a fuck , which is sad. Some guys thing their real thugs , i mean You claim yourself a real boyfriend,  For dating a chick , You say you ''Love'' her And you dump her for absolutely nothing. I mean , wow  the only thing that was real was the helpless girl you were with who loved you and ended up hurt in the end thanks to you. Anyways
Isn't it  funny ,When someone so close to you , all of a sudden means nothing now? I mean i know its called growing up or whatever but seriously , Looking back at all the memories you've had together and now You barely say hi. Thats what i hate about Life , Replacing people Just annoys but sometimes you replace the bad ones with better so you never really know. And Wisely , In life people do change. It doesn't have to particularly mean anything personal , but people sadly change for the sake of others , Atleast thats what I've observed. Its abit rough,  say you have a bestfriend , he changes for someone you absolutely Hate , What would he mean to you now? Or the question is , what do YOU mean to them now? This is Just some General things that i usually ask myself all the time but i let go oftenly. Its a Thursday today , During this time in Sudan , I'd be Spending the weekend with My friends , usually out to grab a bite or just a small gathering at who ever's house. I actually miss it , It's because here i don't have much people to go out with , or even if i do , they live halfway across the city and by the time i reach them , the whole day would be finished.  The Tittle is a name of a song , Definetly a good one , Been listening to it all week. Give it a try , It's some good Vibe that'll cheer you up.  As My summer comes to an end , My main goals now is just to Survive Ramadan , Get Some Whole Wardrobe , And Basically live The last months as this is my last summer as a Senior and It's quite scary to think of it , knowing next year I'd be in college with this Height ( Got taller , but aint gonna brag) , And somewhat gonna Live that  Dope College life with this Mentality of mine.
Catch you guys soon , Lil man Out 

Bulletproof suit



"A Reputation depends on Education"

Hello , I Missed a day. Apologies , My sleeping pattern is very messed  
up. Its like am an alien. I'd sleep all day and Stay up all night. Yeah , You must be thinking i have no life but trust me if you were in my postion you would have done the same, Its like am locked in a prison, and am some sort of an unleashed animal that is kept in some cage. I Haven't been out in a few days but you can't blame me , I'm not insane to walk this door and instantly get shot by some civillian.  You may think staying up all night is a stupid thing to do , but its actually the most quite and peaceful time , i mean there's no annoying people around. you can basically get your mind off anything , the stress , pressure , whatever situation your in. I'd like to share how last night my mood suddenly changed from bad to good.
and thank fully it changed because  i have amazing friends. One's who make me smile , even I'm this further away and yet they manage to keep me happy . So i was stressing out about something that didn't even exist , for a second there i was lost , just faded in my own imagination , thinking about bullshit that hasn't even come to life. I Started overthinking like a fag , then i noticed there was a spark . I Was extremely worried , it was like i was about to lose something that my whole life depends on , something thats so special that it would effect me in every way. But then again, Like i said Friends Managed to turned my head upside down from the bullshit , and they managed to get my mind straight up. Playing online was also a distraction as i took on all my anger and frustration on call of duty. At the end , i was happy and Nothing really matterred to me.
when i re-thought about the whole situation , i was thinking. Why do people overthink? It just causes a mess and shit that didnt even exist in the first place and it somehow recks all your happiness and brainswashes you momentarilly.  I woud also like to talk about how Girls are a major thing in this world , i mean You date a girl , You claim you love her , You dump her months to come and days later you ask another girl out? Thats just bullshit, Girls are emotional and they just mean something to this world , They deserve to be treated right , I For one Won't ever think about hurting any girl , no matter what she's done to me. I Won't go bitch to people about her and devastate her whole life . Girls are sensitive , every action we do somehow has an effect on them emotionally.  To every guy out there , Treat your girls right . i don't care if you think this is massive faggotism , in the end its the truth and I'm not persuading you or deliberately begging you to this. Its basically an option , You choose whats right to you . 
Lil Man out