Day 6: Happy If I Go Through Hell

Day 6: Happy If I Go Through Hell

Fiasco here again. Lil_Man is sick to make things worse. Covering him as usual. He was sick and didn't even come to school today (Therefore it was a boring day). I've ran out of stories about him, and he hasn't even come to school today for me to post about how are day together went (Yes Homo!). Alright so I have no clue on the audience of his blog, but I'm guessing and hoping that a few of you read my personal blog: A Little Bit Of Everything. To all those that follow it, I've had a rough day yesterday, and by tonight, somehow managed to turn that into pure happiness. As much as I know you wanted to read some drama filled story (Chill, you'll get one in a couple of sentences), I need to get one point across. Never let anything, or anyone effect your mood. You decide your own happiness. Its easy to say and hard to do, but recently I have been letting my relationship and social life problems effect my mood. As important as they are to me, I am my priority, and even if those things go horribly wrong, I'll be happy, and that's how we all should be. Getting to the good stuff, I'm whatsapping Lil_Man at the moment, and he wants me to talk about our relationships (As usual). So here goes, when something great happens, like for example, Lil_Man gets a girls he's liked for quite a while, that makes him happy. The problem is, life and fate always seems to fuck things up. Directly after, his social life started going a bit downhill (Personally, he takes it way too seriously, but he is right, I guess that's my opinion only cause I don't give a fuck about mine.). To make things worse, he gets a Target Sheet (Some form of things to keep your grades on form, usually given if you're doing poorly although that's not the case with him). So yeah, he lets thing like that decide his happiness, therefore his morale hasn't been great recently. In addition, I'm required to mention my frustrating day yesterday (Gotten over it, but still hurts looking back at how upset I was). So basically, I went out, and walked about a kilometer to a nearby supermarket to get my misses a gift for our four month anniversary. I spend nearly all my money that I have on hand to buy her some fancy chocolate (Ferrero Rocher to be more exact). I walk nearly another half a kilometer to buy gift wrap, walk that distance home, and spend an hour wrapping it off YouTube videos. I then hide the gift for 3 days and pull of a few stunts to avoid my parents finding it and interrogating me about it. On the day, I sneak it out of my house in an extra P.E bag and give it to my lovely darling. The way I had planned out is that maybe after everyone leaves and we get a moment, we can have our first proper kiss (like those awesome 5 second ones they do in movies). Things didn't go as expected, we had the moment, annnndddd she decided to reject. That frustrated me, made me feel unappreciated and as if I'm flying a relationship on one wing and only building based on words and emotions which as psychologically proven, never works. I was very pissed. In addition I already do things like sneak into the girls area for her, have half the teachers hating me for that, and risk my parents being called up and me being in a mess. So basically it feels horrible, as if I'm giving it my all, and getting nothing in return. Lil_Man is also with me on that whole girls area issue we have in our school. Unfortunately he also has the same issue with attempting to fly a plane on one wing. He can make an excuse that he's been only dating for a month, I've been dating for four months, and in my past my average relationship wouldn't last over 2 weeks. I've just decided that my priority is myself, and as long as I'm doing fine, I won't let this factors affect me, hope Lil_Man decides to the same. Fiasco Out.